Well today was a pretty mild day. Just the usual struggle to breathe. I've had to stop what I was doing multiple times to focus and because of feeling lightheaded, but other than that I was "ok". As ok as I can be I suppose. Although, I have been having sharp pains all over my body, that's new. Also bad headaches for about a week which has lead me to take pain killers more often than I like. I have headaches so often that I try not to take anything for them unless I absolutely need to. And for the past week, I've had to. Ugh.
A little background on my headaches. I've had one literally everyday since I was 13. So that's over 10 years of constant headaches. WOW. What a hassle for a young kid, huh? Went to the doctors a few times when this first started, had CT scans done, put on medication, nothing worked. They said they found nothing wrong and that it's probably due to stress. Stress makes sense now considering my anxiety and panic causes me to get overly stressed over basically nothing. I just don't remember feeling those things back then, its more of a newer problem I think.
I rather feel like I did back then than I do now, obviously. Being stressed is one thing. But being stressed, anxious, and panicking over everyday life is just a pain. Now I'm more restricted in what I can do without having an attack. Sometimes nothing at all will trigger an attack. Hopefully I'll be able to learn to deal better soon so I can just get on with my life and and not feel so trapped! It's so frustrating because I feel completely helpless and I know it's frustrating for everyone around me.
I guess overall, today was a "good day". HA! The next time I have an attack I'll look back on a day like today and wish I felt this good. How sad is that....ugh
A little background on my headaches. I've had one literally everyday since I was 13. So that's over 10 years of constant headaches. WOW. What a hassle for a young kid, huh? Went to the doctors a few times when this first started, had CT scans done, put on medication, nothing worked. They said they found nothing wrong and that it's probably due to stress. Stress makes sense now considering my anxiety and panic causes me to get overly stressed over basically nothing. I just don't remember feeling those things back then, its more of a newer problem I think.
I rather feel like I did back then than I do now, obviously. Being stressed is one thing. But being stressed, anxious, and panicking over everyday life is just a pain. Now I'm more restricted in what I can do without having an attack. Sometimes nothing at all will trigger an attack. Hopefully I'll be able to learn to deal better soon so I can just get on with my life and and not feel so trapped! It's so frustrating because I feel completely helpless and I know it's frustrating for everyone around me.
I guess overall, today was a "good day". HA! The next time I have an attack I'll look back on a day like today and wish I felt this good. How sad is that....ugh
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